“But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all
these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about
tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of
its own.” Matthew 6:33-34
After once again
getting out of the habit of exercising, I got up early yesterday to walk around
the island before sunrise. When I
started this blog, it was because I really thought my last year on this island
had begun, and I wanted to record what my life on an island was like before it
was just a memory of a place I once lived.
That was in 2010. Obviously, God’s plan for me was to stay a while
longer. This evening as I walked the
island I am so familiar with at sunset this time, I considered how many times I
had wished to move on from here. I
listed in my mind all the other places over the years that I have thought about
living and hoped for an opportunity to arise to take me there, none of which
ever came about and certainly not for my lack of trying to find work and life
elsewhere. I have been putting my resume
out there for jobs off and on for the last 5-7 years and despite an interview
here and there, nothing has ever been offered to take me away from
Kwajalein. For now, God has spoken. My life is here…on an atoll. For how much longer? I don’t know. Where will
He lead me to next? I don’t know that either.
A few years back, that would have made me very anxious, not having a
plan or knowing where my future would be, but today, not so much. I think the people who are most anxious about
God’s plan for my life at this moment in time are my own parents. Of course, they are very interested in
helping me and my family get settled back in Alabama with them, and it’s not
that I’m opposed to that. I’ve applied for jobs both there and in Oregon where
my husband’s family lives as well as overseas (because the civil service jobs I
qualify for are easier to break into overseas than in the states right now),
but the simple truth of the matter is that God has not opened any doors to life
off the atoll yet. And who knows, God may take me where my husband lands a job,
not me. It’s not all dependent on me
getting a job first. My hubby is my family now along with my sons, so I have to
be open to those opportunities God may open for him as well. Bottom line is…I’m letting God decide my
future. I’m seeking Him first and His
will for my life, not my own will, not my parent’s will (no offense, mom and
dad), but God’s Will because He knows best.
Of course, I am keeping my eyes
wide open, to see the opportunities He may be leading me to, to make sure I see
His plan clearly when He reveals it, but in the meantime, I am resting in His
plan for today and not worrying about tomorrow, and that’s enough, Praise God! J
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