“Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth;
meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything
written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded
you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for
the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1: 8-9
My boys have been
with their dad back in the states for 2 weeks this coming Friday, and I miss
them terribly. I have been calling about
every other day to check in and chat. I
remember the first time I had to be away from more than a couple of weeks.
Granted, they were a good bit younger than they are now, but it was
excruciating. If I hadn’t spoken to them
in a few days, I would literally break down in tears. I missed them so much…I could probably go
back and find where I wrote about being away from them in this very blog. In fact, when I posted my blog entry
yesterday, I went back and read a couple of entries from the last year, which
lead me to look in my drawer at some of my handwritten journals that I would
write in before my internet blogging days.
One of these journals is one I keep for my youngest son. I wrote back in August concerning how I had
started talking with someone about my challenging situation with my children
and ex-husband. My counselor saw how tightly I was holding on to my sons and
suggested that I let go a bit in order to gain peace for myself and for them in
the coming months and years. Thankfully,
I have been able to take that advice and apply it to my life, which shows
through how I relate to being away from them now versus a couple of years
ago. Yes, I still call and check in and
want to speak with them. And certainly, I still miss them as much as I ever
have when we’ve been away from each other, but there’s not the panic and
anxiety that there once was when I hadn’t spoken to them in awhile. I know that God is with them wherever they
go, and I no longer have to be terrified or discouraged or insecure about them
or their future. It’s in God’s hands. Because
of God and His word, I can be strong and courageous like never before, trusting
in God’s plan for my babies, just as I trust in His plan for me.
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