Moses said to the Lord, “Oh Lord, I have never been
eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am
slow of speech and tongue.” The Lord said to him, “Who gave man his mouth? Who
makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I,
the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” Exodus
4: 10-12
The second book
of the Bible, Exodus, begins with Moses, a man who no less than 5 times
questions God about sending him to be the one who leads God’s people out of
slavery in Egypt. Repeatedly, Moses says
things like, “Who am I, that I should go…” and “What if they do not believe me
or listen to me…” and finally just plain, “O Lord, please send someone else to
do it.” My fifth grader and his Christian friends have been dealing with
something similar in their school lately. During Sunday school this week, his
teacher shared with me that the kids in her class, including my son, were
wondering how to respond to friends who don’t believe, worrying about how they
will react and what they should say to them when their non-believing friends
express their thoughts that God is not real or that they do not believe in
Him. It’s sad to think that they have to
deal with this so young, but often they are better equipped to handle it than
adults are, adults who have had many more years to mess up and recognize how
inadequate we are. Apparently, my son
finds it fairly simple. He just tells his friends that he believes God is real,
and that’s that. If we all could be so
bold without getting into sermons or becoming too preachy where we turn others
off or push them further away from God.
In effect it’s saying, “This is what I believe. I’d love to talk to you
about it if you want, but if you don’t, I’m still going to believe. And no
matter what you believe, you’re still my friend.” That’s my favorite part. At
his age, none of this actually seems to affect their friendships. There’s only
a small group of children on the base (around 200 within the K-6th
grade elementary school), so they are limited with finding new friends if they
have a falling out with the old ones. In
some ways, this is a good thing because it teaches them how to love
unconditionally. Even if their friends do not go to church or are from a very
different type of family or cultural background, it doesn’t matter. They will
not shun them or form the same type of cliques and social groupings you’ll find
at most bigger schools because there’s simply not enough children to do
so. They learn how to be friends and
accept all types of people, while continuing to keep their own beliefs and
cultural backgrounds in tack, for the most part. It’s quite amazing. They are a
product of their environments, and they have adapted very well. This is a great
example of how our attitudes toward God should be, adapting to what He needs us
to adapt to at any given time. We all need to be prepared to be used by God in
one way or another, to find ways to accept the place He has put us and allow
Him to work through it instead of complaining that it’s not what we wanted or
hoped it would be. In fact, the more you
resist being used by God, often the greater he will choose to use you, like
Moses. He didn’t want to go around
saving his people from the Egyptians, but he feared God more, so he did. One thing my son’s teacher told her students
yesterday is to set a good example, to show God’s love through their actions,
and that’s how they will attract their unbelieving friends to God. I am a big
advocate of this. More often for me, it’s not what you say, but how you conduct
yourself that matters. If you are not
happy in your current situation and complain about it, then that’s what others
will see, an unhappy, negative Christian. Moses was very honest about his
deficiencies and faults and even His fear in doing God’s bidding, but he
revealed his true connection to God, his fear and reverence for him by doing
what God asked of Him and allowing God to use him and his brother through all
sorts of signs and miracles to set God’s chosen people free from slavery in
Egypt. It couldn’t have been easy, but
He accepted what God had chosen for Him to do, and He moved forward to do it. I
do not claim to know anymore than anyone else about God. Sometimes I worry that
I have even written something that’s not quite right in my ramblings about the
Bible because that’s what they are, my ramblings, my simple understanding of a
very complex and mighty God and the world and people He’s created to live in
it, but I have to trust that if God wants to use me, speak through me, than He
will do so, even if I don’t realize He’s doing it, even when I don’t feel
equipped to do it. He will shape the
thoughts and words as I type them. He will take the things I have wrong and
cause those reading them to forget those parts and focus only on the truths He
wants to impart to His children at that moment. He is greater than me. He is the
“I Am,” and He knows exactly the right thing to say and do at all times. He
created heaven and earth and all the beings in it, so how could I ever doubt
that He can do what He needs to do through me and the others He made. He can and He will, no matter who you are or
what you believe about Him or yourself. The
absolute best part of all of this is that once you turn your focus to God and
allow Him to use you, all the other blessings will follow, and those things
that were hard to deal with before suddenly become easier because you have
changed your focus and have put God in charge of it all, so before you say,
“Not me, Lord” consider what you are really saying no to.