“The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the person
who seeks Him.” Lamentations 3:25
Some days I feel like I have been waiting on God for a long,
long time. I have been praying for the
situation with my children and their father to be resolved for over 5 years
now, and I am still waiting. I realize
that when children are involved in a divorce it is a bit more complicated. I
also realize that to some degree, their father and I will have to remain in
contact, because of the boys, for many more years, but it’s like the turmoil,
the issues, the custody, nothing has ever really been resolved to even begin
with. How can you move forward when there’s still so much to figure out? When I
consider what God has done over the past five years, the list is long. He’s
made me stronger, in my faith and myself. He’s given me the love of a lifetime
in my husband. He’s provided for me with
a steady job that most days I really do enjoy or at least a job I am
comfortable in and able to discover joy on a regular basis. He’s kept me with my boys and in their life
in a big way! I’ve never really had to go too long without being with them, and
he’s provided me with the opportunities to continue being an integral part of
their activities and experiences on the island.
He’s given me a whole new family in Oregon and brought my own parents
back together and in one place. He’s made
it possible for me to publish books with my kids, which I might never have been
able to afford to do living anywhere else in the world with taxes and bills and
all that comes with life on the “mainland.” He’s shown me how to let go, how to
find peace in life’s circumstances no matter where you live or what is going
on. He’s molded me and blessed me in countless ways over the last five years,
but this one prayer, this one question in my life continues to go without a
final answer. It’s in process, so to speak, and it’s been hard to wait on God
to show me what He’s going to do. I may be wrong, but I sense all of this will
be coming to a close soon (maybe not a permanent close, but one that will
result in a big transition and change in our lives), and it may not be in the
way I hope or expect. God’s ways and plans are not always what we expect,
although, it will be what is best. So, what has God been doing while I was
waiting on Him? He’s been preparing me for what’s to come. He’s been making
sure I would be able to handle the answer when He finally reveals it to
me. And it’s not all about me…I feel
sure He has also been preparing the boys for their future, making them strong
for what’s ahead. I don’t know what even the most immediate future holds for
us, but I will continue to seek God and wait on Him as I know He will be good
to me and my boys if I will simply be patient and trust in His plan for
us.
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