September 14, 2010-Brain Mush!

     Tonight, my brain is mush.  For once, a topic to write about is just not there, not coming to mind.  There’s plenty of things swirling around in my head, but nothing that I feel I can adequately put into words that would make any sense to my readers.  It’s like trying to describe a dream to a friend, you know, one of those dreams where one minute you’re swimming in the ocean with friends and the next you’re flying in an airplane with strangers, and finally you’re back at home with people who you know but that don’t look like they do in real life.  That’s where my brain is right now, going in a bunch of different directions without one clear topic to ponder for more than a minute or two. 

     For example, I started training for my new job today; I’ve been thinking a lot about the possibility of getting a house finally and how that is all going to work out with when the boys will be with me and when they will be with dad as well as how my schedule will work since the job I’m transferring too has very different hours than the school job I’ve coming from; I also got a call for a job interview today for a civil service position, so I’ve been thinking about that as well. It seems that when it rains it really does pour, whether it’s in the area of opportunities and open doors or challenging situations and closed doors. So many things are still up in the air for me right now. Hopefully they will settle down soon, but knowing life and how it tends to take you by surprise, I’m sure once I’m through this period of transition, I’ll have an entirely new one to devote my worries and time to.  :) 

     Then, of course, there’s plans for the future.  I can’t go very long without pondering the future and how that’s going to work out as a single mom going back to the states where the economy is horrible right now and job prospects are even worse.  Aiiiiyiiiiyiiii! Sometimes, it’s just all too much, and I need to sleep to shut my brain down for a bit and reboot. I am very thankful that I can do that unlike so many who cannot sleep when they have a lot on their mind.  For me, it’s always been a way to clear it out and start fresh later. Early morning tomorrow on the new job with the new hours, so I better get going and turn off my “computer” for that all important re-boot! :)