Tuesday, February 17, 2015

February 17: Writing Prompt #48-Mentor

Have you ever had a mentor? What was the greatest lesson you learned from him or her?
Not long after I moved to Kwajalein, I read a verse in the Bible about older women mentoring younger women (“Older women likewise are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers or slaves to much wine. They are to teach what is good, and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind, and submissive to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be reviled.” Titus 2:3-5) and as I had just left everything and everyone I had ever known back in Alabama to get married and move to the island, including my church friends and support system, I prayed for God to bring someone into my life to be my friend, someone who could mentor me, and he sent me Kay.  I can’t even express how much the years we had together meant to me.  She moved not long after I had my first child, but those first 3-4 years were so much better because of her.  She was a like-minded support for me in my early years of marriage and my link to the Christian walk I had grown up in and had trouble (at first) finding a connection to at the one Protestant chapel on the base.
We taught self-confrontation courses together (a life changing study with a focus on judging ourselves first-…"Or how can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' and behold, the log is in your own eye? "You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye. Do not give what is holy to dogs, and do not throw your pearls before swine, or they will trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces. Matthew 7:4-6) And mainly she was my first and only connection in those early, early years.  It was not as easy for me to connect with others on a personal level at that time in my life. I was very shy, quiet, and had very little self-confidence.  I did not easily confide in others then, but I immediately fell into my comfort zone with Kay.
The greatest lesson I learned from her was to be myself without fear of judgment, particularly in the area of my beliefs, but also in general. I would never force my thoughts, feelings, beliefs, or values on anyone else, but in my 20’s I was not even comfortable being open with who I was and how I believed at that time.  I accepted others for who they were, but I didn’t accept myself and certainly wouldn’t have stood up for myself if necessary.  Now, I am stronger, wiser, and I am not afraid to tell you who I am, to share my vulnerabilities, my faults, my hypocrisies, wrong judgments about others, and my many mistakes. I also learned from my mentor that it was not about me…nothing is really about me. 
My only other surreal experience in my life was during these years with my Kay.  I was getting ready to lead one of my self-confrontation classes, and I had not prepared for it, AT ALL. This is not the type of class you can wing. You have to do your homework in order to work through the material with others.  So, I did the only thing I could do…I prayed. I prayed that God would give me the words, that He would work through me because I certainly could not do it that night. I had nothing to give my students. When I started class, it was like someone else took over. God led me through the whole thing, and I take NO CREDIT for it.  What happened was completely the doings of a higher being.  I didn’t know what to say, but the words were provided to me, and it was the best class I ever led, still to this day.  It showed me that my purpose in this world is not about me. It’s about allowing my experiences, my God, my life to serve others in whatever way I can. Whether I am an encourager, a bright smile in an otherwise terrible day, someone who can provide a meal, be a babysitter, or help a child with their homework, it doesn’t matter as long as I am serving someone else and helping them through their day, week, or month. 

You may not believe in God, and I hope not to offend any of my readers with this blog and its contents. It’s not meant for that, but thanks to my mentor, I will not be afraid to share my life with you all in this way, and God has always been a huge part of it for me.  We all need someone or something to get us through this crazy life, and for me, it’s Him and the blessings of this life He’s provided me that I certainly don’t deserve, but I am thankful for.  Love and hugs to all my readers! No matter what you believe, I love you all very, very much! 

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