Describe your ultimate escape plan (and tell
us what you’re escaping from).
Hmmmm…not
sure how to answer this one. I have
never thought about an escape plan…okay, that’s not true. I did dream about
escaping my life during the last couple of years of my first marriage. I was
deeply depressed, and my “escape plan,” as it were, usually started with me
finding a job teaching college English in a quaint little college town in the
states and having a home there for me and my boys…a plan where I could find
myself again and feel worth something. But,
there was never really any plan, just dreams about living in another world,
having another life. I never considered the details about how to make it work.
I think that’s because I knew in my heart it was not that simple, and I
couldn’t just escape my life that way, so it was only a way to escape my
troubles and make myself feel some joy again for a brief moment, not a true
escape plan.
In the end,
I believe I’m too practical and rational to make an escape plan. I overanalyze
most things, so I would be so busy considering all the things that could go
wrong and what wouldn’t work that I’d never be able to finalize the plan. When I do make a decision to escape
something, it’s a decision that I have overworked so hard in my mind and with
my emotions that when I actually do something about it, there’s no plan. I just
decide it’s time to change….TODAY. And that’s it. No escape plan necessary…well, not
really. You can never really escape
anything or anyone. People, places, and your experiences always stay with you
and affect you, so some may call it an escape plan, but it’s really just a move
to make a major change in your life. J For
me, that comes after much heart-wrenching mental deliberation, and then it’s a
waiting game, waiting until my heart and head come together and tell me it’s
time. What about you?
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